I hate and love. You ask, perhaps how that can be? I know not, but I feel the agony.

The feelings this time round, are quite queer. Its like a cocktail of anticipation, fear, joy, comfort, reassurance, worry all shaken up into a shooter glass to be downed in a mouthful.

I don’t know how things will go from here. But hey, I am just gonna enjoy the process of dating once again.

When I walk away from him mad [ he'll follow me ]
When I stare at his lips [ he'll smile... then kiss me ]
When I push or hit him [ he'll hug me tight ]
When I start cursing at him [ he'll say "I love you" ]
When I’m quiet [ he'll hold my hand and ask what's wrong ]
When I ignore him [ he'll act cute so I'll notice him ]
When I pull away [ he'll pull me back ]
When he sees me at my worst [ he'll tell me he loves me and I still look amazing ]
When he sees me start crying [ he'll hold me... ask me what's wrong ]
When he sees me walking [ he'll approach me... give me a kiss on the cheek ]
When I’m scared [ he'll assure me he's not going to leave me ]
When I lay my head on his shoulder [ he'll tilt his head too... and hold my hand]
When I steal his favorite hat [ he'll let me keep it]
When I tease him [ he'll tease me back and make me laugh ]
When I don’t answer for a long time [ he'll reassure me that everything is okay ]
When I look at him with doubt [ he'll back himself up ]
When I grab at his hands [ he'll hold mine and play with my fingers ]
When I bump into him [ he'll bump into me back and make me laugh ]
When I tell him a secret [ he'll keep it safe and untold ]
When I look at him in his eyes [ he doesn't look away until I do ]
When I say that I like him [ I really do more than he could understand ]
When I miss him [ I'm hurting inside ]
When I say it’s all over [ I still wants him to be mine ]
When he breaks my heart [ the pain never really goes away ]
- He’ll stay on the phone with me even if I not saying anything.
- When I’m mad, he’ll hug me tight and not let go.
- When I say I’m ok, he’ll not believe it and talk with me because 10 yrs later I’ll remember him.
- He’ll call me at 12:00am on my birthday to tell me he loves me.
- He’ll call me before I sleep and after I wake up.
- He’ll treat me like I’m all that matters to him.
- He’ll tease me and let me tease him back.
- He’ll stay up all night with me when I’m sick.
- He’ll watch my favorite movie with me or my favorite show even if he think it’s stupid.
- He’ll give me the world.
- He’ll let me wear his clothes.
- When I’m bored and sad, he’ll hang out with me.
- He’ll let me know that I’m important.
- He’ll kiss me in the pouring rain.
- When I run up to him crying, the first thing he’ll say is,”Whose ass am I kicking babe?”

BBoy has split with his airstewardess girlfriend lo and behold!

Though that was supposed to be good news for me, but unfortunately its happening at the wrong time.

Can’t imagine, suddenly there are more good news flooding in for me. I hope this keeps up.

On the contrary, its Karma with a capital K when I broke my heels less than 30 minutes into door-hosting while laughing at someone during a conversation with Marco. Karma baby, karma.

But the ego’s slightly inflated on the first day of 2008, being greeted and a little overwhelmed by 3 confessions since morning till late in the afternoon.

#1: the cow-boy

#2: man from past

#3: “what if”

If this is a brilliant way to kickstart the year, I am hoping for a brilliant year ahead. On a side note, I am really glad the cow-boy is feeling the 幸福 like I do.

Have a happy 2008 folks.

goodness gracious me. i’ve indirectly ‘fessed up regarding the person who holds residence in my heart currently to him.

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and he likes me too. i’m so totally not expecting this on the first day of 2008!

I’m so FUCKING HAPPY!!! Yay yay yay!!!

Ahhhhhhhhhhhh…

I’m so happy!