Going Once, Twice and Gone!
After close to about 1 years and 9 months of singlehood since breaking up with the ex, I have finally joined the ranks of those who possess a certain utility called “boyfriend”.
Having one of my own doesn’t entitle me to more benefits nor is it ego-boosting. But ahs.
It feels surreal…
Except that presumptious bastard kept insisting that I was the one who initiated it. Wah lau, asking if you are serious to date me not equivalent to asking you to be my boyfriend. I just need to know where you stand to know how to play this game (if it is one in the first place). I don’t want to give so much of myself if it’s but a physical thing. If you are serious, then we can perhaps think of really committing to each other in a relationship. HE SKIPPED THE ENTIRE STEP OF ASKING ME! Bleah.
CCB.
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No prizes for guessing who.
Anyway, so far so good.
Meanwhile, bye A. It has been really great with you. I’ll miss you.
Easy as ABC
I asked, “Are you serious about me?”
You went …
I am not asking you to die for me or vouch that you will love me forever, all I needed to know if you are serious in having a relationship with me. Know me well enough and you’ll realise that I don’t do love in half measures. I give my all. And yes, I would give up Boy Little for you.
Was it such a difficult question to answer?
If you are not serious about getting into a relationship, then why say you love me? That is misleading. Your failure to answer me yes or no only made me cast doubts upon your true intention towards me. Why make me fall for you if you don’t even mean it?
I am not what you think I am.
Hercules Is No Match For My Vulnerability
Why do people all choose to go away at the same time?
Even Herculean strength can’t lift me up from my self-dug pit of moodiness.
Lonely tonight as B (JW) has decided to sup with his friends and go back home for the night. I must have gotten too used to having someone in bed with me.
After all, we’ve been sharing a bed together for the past 1 odd month.
But I will not miss him, or so I tell myself not to.
Emo
Just waaay down in the dumps.
It might be GAME OVER for me and A (Boy Little) soon. That is depressing.
B (JW) mentioned before and today again that guys’ words can’t be trusted. So yeah, that applies to him as well right?
So his declaration of love to me was just to get inside my pants?
I hate feeling all so dubious about his genuinity.
BAH.
Heightened senses
The clock ticks slowly.
The aircon is freezing.
I am bleeding.
I stare at the paper and the paper stares back at me.
Mathematics sucks.
Nail-biting Anxiety
The exams bug has finally gotten to me. It’s pretty unnerving for someone like me who does last minute preparation and still manages to get her priorities wrong. Like watching the goggle box and playing Solitaire.
The first paper on Monday was quite a breeze really, given that it was an open-book exam. My only shortcoming was failing to realize the last question had 5 parts instead of 4, thereby misjudging my time allocation in answering them (i.e. I didn’t manage to do the last part!)! And they were such give-away marks! KNN.
Now the paper I am about to sit for in 9 hours time is causing me stress to no end, especially since I mistook the paper to be on the last day of exams instead and I am so unprepared for it!
Oh dear Lord, please help me!
This entire period mugging in school with JW and his friends has made me realised that kiasuism in school takes on a different form. Like how people use tissue paper packets to “chope” seats at hawker centre, students in NTU leave their bags, paper, belongings overnight in school tutorial rooms or seminar rooms so as to ensure that they have a space to study. Must be so exaggerating meh?
Such selfish acts deprive other students who want to use the rooms for studying as well late into the night when those who have “choped” their places leave to go home.
Stupid fucks. I am wondering if only NTU are capable of producing such students or if that applies to NUS and SMU as well.
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The monthlies has finally come. February’s period came a week late. March’s period was delayed by a good 3 weeks, and that’s nearly skipping a month.
Sunshine was saying it could be my burgeoning sex life that possibly threw my menstrual cycle into mayhem. Bugger that.
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My friend who works at Sunset Bay just asked me for sex. It’s your birthday I know my dear friend, BUT BUT, there are 3 good reasons why I am saying “NO” to you:
1) I am having my period.
2) I don’t do guys.
3) I don’t do friends.
Enjoy getting laid pal!
ménage à trois
Dictionary
ménage à trois |māˈnä zh ä ˈt(r)wä; mə-| noun ( pl. ménages à trois pronunc. same) an arrangement in which three people share a sexual relationship, typically a domestic situation involving a married couple and the lover of one of them. ORIGIN French, ‘household of three.’
I am thinking of expanding my harem. How’s that for a reply to your question Gothic Jap Porn Star?
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Case 1: Me and JW
What would happen if a Virgo Female chose a Scorpio Male as a partner?
This can be an excellent relationship if those slight differences between each other can be understood. The Virgo female is emotional and will blatantly criticise things like his body odour and his breath. The Scorpio male will probably tolerate that, knowing him, even though he is a proud creature, (which the Virgo won’t like). So long as he doesn’t get too possessive over her, as Scorpios have a natural tendency to be jealous over the tiniest little thing. He may even go as far as, disapproving of her projectile-drooling over Matt Le Blanc when ‘Friends’ is on. Revenge is sweet though, as she has another reason to beat his ass with a cricket bat if she ever comes home and catches him slobbering over those girls on the Playboy channel, during the free-view.
Horn Meter Reading: 5/5 Hearts
Rating: Speed Horn!
Verdict: Prepare yourself for one hell of a ride! ‘This Romeo and Juliet’ relationship should theoretically, bloom like fungus in horse manure! Most people will envy and hate this couple because they get on so well.
Me and Boy Little/ZKQ:
What would happen if a Virgo Female chose a Virgo Male as a partner?
The worst thing about a Virgo is their ability to criticise and pick faults with any tiny little thing they can get their grubby paws on. When two perfectionist, worry warts get together, you can well imagine the consequences. They’ll pick at any tiny little thing and will get into arguments because either he sneezed incorrectly, or she hasn’t shaved her legs properly. Watching TV might be an interesting experience, as they will be criticising every little detail on those girls out of ‘Sex and the City’ and poking fun at their lines, make-up and clothes. That will be quality bonding time for them and their keen eye for detail also means that everything in their lives will be neat and done according to routine. They will be like clockwork, working in harmony just like those little orange ‘Oompa Loompa’ midgets from that film about that chocolate factory which is run by that guy with the cool name.
Horn Meter Reading: 4/5 Hearts
Rating: Bull Horn
Verdict: This should be an interesting relationship. There are a few minor flaws, squeals and squabbles, but at the end of the day, you wouldn’t throw away a Ferrari if it had a dent in it now, would you?
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Damn it, Sunshine is feeling for a boy I like… GROWLS! Hands off ZKQ girl! HAHA!
I Love You I Love You Not
Why did I utter those three words to B (JW) last night?
Out of guilt?
Out of passion?
Or do I simply just feel obliged to return the words?
In B’s words, he was missing me madly when I wasn’t around the whole day cos I was at church, then out with my ex-tuition kid and her starbucks colleague (the 20 year old Malay-Chinese mixed guy is UBER CUTE CAN!!!) and spending the entire evening-night doing a post-birthday celebration dinner and drinks thing with Marycherry and Merlin; and couldn’t concentrate on his books and got upset when I didn’t reply his texts.
My phone died! Not that I didn’t want to reply!
Would B have been more agitated had he found out that A (Boy Little) had texted me to have a drink with her and sleep over at her place earlier? I didn’t though cos I only saw her messages after getting back to hall…
Love is a complicated shit, ain’t it?
